god
i know you are there
watching me with your cherish and bare
nothing can't be hidden
nor can't be forgotten.

i am dying
then you let me crying
i am bleeding
i am only a bony clattering

god
i know you are there
i know you are care
i create my on fire
and i let it burning my prior

i am a Satan or Angel 
or just simply say i am Yours

God
i know you are there
i don't even dare
to drain my sin to swear
i see the heaven or a bunch of hare.

i fell an army of demon
priest me turn my lust on
drive me till i am crown
as an atheist moron

God
are you still there?

in your majesty,
you create differences
in my arrogance,
i question your wisdom
in your mistery,
you create temptation
in my inferiority,
you make me more than i am

so here i am

i confess the whole of my difference
i regret the whole of Your creation
i refuse the whole of my emotions
i deny the whole of my affections

let me tell you something my dear God
everything in me is just an odd
my difference makes me being an idiot
could i just face the world with nod?

i love you my dear God
everything in me is what i effort
the result supposed to everybody proud
or could i just make a shout?

My Dear God...
26/09/2010

setapak demi setapak kutelusuri kelam.
menangisi sesal hadapi kalam.
ketika lentera hati padam.
sesalku tak kan pernah temaram.

indah nian kutatap malam.
laksana surga mungucap salam.
kusapa bintang tak pernah muram.
sayup mimpi hadirkan suram.

engkau hadir buatku karam.
tanpa jiwa kau siksaku kejam.
kurasa perih, remuk lebam.
kuteriakan rintih kau diam.

kucoba melawan tanpa dendam.
kubangun puing hati hancur redam.
labirin buram sesatku terbenam.
semakin jauh ku terajam.

bebaskanku darimu malam.
lelapkanku selayak gendam.
bangun khan ku selayak godam.
karenamu malam ku jahanam.

My heroism, My egoism
My hypocrisy, My greed
My cruelty, My arrogance
and my curiosity.
Let them as a malady of vengeance.
Vengeance of agony.
Agony as courage.
Courage acquires triumph.
Triumph conquers over the human race.

kesedihanku bukan karena aku tidak bisa bersamamu, kesedihanku karenaku terlahir hanya tuk mencintaimu.

aku rindu, bukan untuk melihatmu. aku rindu bukan tuk memelukmu. aku rindu bukan untuk menjamahmu. aku hanya rindu untuk bisa sedetik melupakanmu.

Aku hanyalah aku, aku yang sadar akan segala kekuranganku, aku yang sadar akan segala kesedihanku, aku yang menagisi segala penderitaanku, aku yang merenungi segala mimpiku, aku yang memohon segala asaku, karena aku hanyalah aku.